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Thursday, 25 August 2011

  • Hurricane Irene

    Dear friends,

    You probably don't know where I live, but I live close to Virginia Beach- right in southeastern VA where the hurricane is supposed to hit.

    I will probably be MIA for a few days, maybe longer.  We are getting hit with Hurricane Irene sometime Saturday evening.  I am planning on riding out the storm at my dad's house. He has a generator, so hopefully I'll have access to the outside world if we lose power. For those of you who will be in the path of the storm, I wish you safety- please be careful.

    Love you all!

Thursday, 27 January 2011

  • The weight of it all

    That's it.

    I'm tired of being unhealthy. I'm tired of my clothes not fitting. I'm tired of feeling huge and bloated all the time.

    I have got to do something to be more active and to get back to a healthy weight. 

    In high school, I was a swimmer, very active...swimming several miles a day.  My healthy weight was around 135-140 lbs. I stayed there pretty consistently, and now looking back on it, a TON of that was muscle.  Then I got pretty sick my freshman year of college.  I had really bad IBS and had trouble eating, because about 1/2 hour after eating, I would end up in the bathroom.  It was really embarrassing at times.  I was uncomfortable going on dates because I thought they might think I had an eating disorder or something. I ended up weighing right around 120 lbs.  Most people said I looked great- but to be honest, I feel like it got me a lot of negative attention.  Guys started liking me for my looks, not for me.  I just became another skinny girl. 

    Slowly I got back to my normal weight. Sure, I couldn't wear a size 4 anymore, but I felt more like myself again. 

    After I graduated, I slowly gained weight.  I crept up to 150 lbs and swore that it was too much, that I needed to lose weight.  But I work in an office, and the sedentary lifestyle started catching up with me.

    Fast forward to now, and I'm presently at 160 lbs and miserable.  Part of this is due to a medication I'm on...it has made me gain weight, and makes it hard to get the weight off. But a large part of this is due to the fact that I'm lazy, and like most other Americans, I have this inability to serve myself NORMAL portions of food. 

    So what is the point of this whole post?

    I want you, reader, to remind me to live a healthy lifestyle.  (I don't know really know if I have any readers- but here's to hoping!)

    I want you to tell me how important it is to be active, to live life, and that food and I don't have to struggle anymore. 

    My goal is not to get back down to 120 lbs. I know that its not realistic for me.  But my goal is to be happy in my body again. To treat it right and do the things I need to do to FEEL healthy.

    Would you please encourage me in that?

     

     

Monday, 29 November 2010

  • Let sleeping dogs lie?

    I don't really have time to write, but I'm going to anyway, and I realize I haven't written in awhile.

    I needed to vent.  So earlier this year (February maybe?) I went out on a date with this guy from church (we'll call him John).  I had known him for years, didn't think there was anything there, but hey, I thought I'd give it a try.  So it went ok, but I was feeling nothing- just had a good time with a friend. Yeah, we had a lot in common, and I still enjoy debating music and sports and all sorts of stuff with him, but there were no sparks.

    So then a mutual married couple we know kept asking me to hang out after church...cool, no biggie.  They always asked me like a bunch of people were coming over. So imagine my surprise when John and the couple were the only people there.  And they did this two or so times until finally I confronted John about it.  I told him that I felt trapped when he orchestrated stuff like that.  I don't like being tricked under false pretenses.  I was under the impression that it would be a group of friends from church, and it ended up being a double date.

    After that, things kinda fizzled out completely with John and I. We stopped talking- pretty much altogether.  Fast forward to the present day. He started dating another girl from church, we'll call her Lucy.  I knew Lucy and John were dating and that was cool, I'm happy for them. They announced last week at church that they are engaged.  I mean, I can't speak for them, but I would find it hard to be engaged to someone I've been dating less than a year.   But any way.  Now that they are engaged and all that history is dredged up in my mind again, I am mad all over again about feeling tricked. I never confronted the couple about how I felt. 

    I have a feeling that it is too late to bring it up now and I should let sleeping dogs lie. Readers, what are your thoughts, should I drop it? Or should I say something to them?  Have you had any situation like this?

Thursday, 06 May 2010

  • college is a bubble.

    College does not prepare you for real life.

    College is a fantasy world.

    Those who think they are "so ready" to be done college should rethink.

    I wish I could go back and appreciate those 4 years much more.

    I feel kinda like Peter Pan...I never want to grow up.

    End rant.


Friday, 12 February 2010

  • february.

    Thank you carxxcrash_quotes for this, it sums up how i feel:
     
    Blame it on the weather, but I'm a mess
    And this February darkness has me hating everyone
    And I know I need your comfort,
    but this drama makes me sick
    And the longer I lay here
    I know it's harder to get up without you

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